the end of the beginning of the end of the beginning - does it make sense to u?

newsflash: to my geng tekbes, pada ari sabtu bersamaan 5hb mei ini, saya sudah terlupa bahawasanya kita telah menge-book date itu utk sesi gosip kita sekali lagi. saya akan mengalami sedikit masalah teknikal pada hari itu di mana saya hanya boleh berjumpa pada waktu pagi iaitu dari subuh hingga ke 11.30 pagi sahaja. sudah saya umumkan kepada puan pengelola tentang masalah saya ini. jadi jika semua orang boleh berjumpa pada masa yang saya berikan, saya boleh men-join sesi ini. otherwise, saya kena pass ke lain hari. mintak maap dan harap maklum ye :)

ps: swensen's subang parade sounds fab! (dekat ngan umah aku maa hehe).

-posted at 5.10pm-

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today is the first day i shall go into limbo mode at my current employment. the powers that be have accepted my resignation and once they heard where i'm going, they said GO. and that's exactly what i plan on doing! :)

anyhow... on a different note, i made a boo-boo. and i feel super terrible about it now.

what do u do when u made a mistake that u thought was not a mistake at the time but the more u think about it, u should've stopped where u should've but u didn't and u let it get worse and u couldn't just stop midway cos that'd be like tergantung so u just continue the mistake until infinity. well, not infinity lah.. but still. the wound has been made, the scar will definitely be embedded and the memories shall remain. i just hope we learn from our mistakes more than we dwell on them. that'd be like, stoopid (the dwelling, that is).

nevertheless, i do have some ke-tak-puasan-hati-ness. with certain people. and how they got into the equation. aku geram sampai termimpi-mimpi. but never mind, only God will membalas "jasa" mereka *hmph*.

ok so in the spirit of cleaning my slates and after Amy's act of changing her blog address, i felt compelled to do the same as i feel that "cokelightonly" no longer represents who i am now. nor does "the journal of a wandering / errant mind". these names were coined some 4 years ago when i started my blog as a personal online journal which nobody but me could read.

but as i've grown with experience from then to now, i feel that it's time to let go of the old memories that are laced with some badness and some goodness, some sadness and some happiness...

i have now become a slightly different person. for better or for worse, i'm not quite sure which. but different, nonetheless.

about my writing, i'm not sure if u will read a new zeeda or just the same old one. i don't know how much different i will be, i guess it all depends on my mood that day.

so by tomorrow, may 4, 2007, u will no longer find me here.

if u find me at my new crib, u find me. and if u don't, u don't. i stop no one from forwarding my new address to others, neither do i promote it. i suffer no losses and i don't think u have, too. but i do hope that u have enjoyed reading me and felt the happiness and the sorrow i felt during those penned times...

and to the frens who often leave comments, thank u guys. u are well appreciated :)

let's begin a new chapter full of more happiness and sorrow...

shall we?