early detection of alzheimer's

sometimes when i look at jim, i feel a wave of unfamiliriaty rush over me. like - who is this man in this strange bedroom? is he my husband? really? i'm married? is that how he looks like? who is he? i felt like that last night. masa nak tidur, i felt like - is this the man i'm supposed to sleep with every night?

i'm not kidding ok. it's like i tak kenal his face, tak kenal dia langsung. takut ok.

i'm a candidate for alzheimer's lah and i'm scared. maybe i just need to take smthg to improve my memory? i'm already taking pharmaton, it has some ginseng extract in it which is supposed to be good for memory.. or was it some other thing? aiyoooo how laaa...

what i'm most scared of is that i won't be able to recognise the faces of the people that i love the most.

or is it because that jim and i haven't even known each other for 2 years pun? macam too sekejap like dat terus dah kawin? aik? macam culture shock tau.

u know what i mean?

maybe u don't :(