dosa vs pahala

yesterday a fren called and asked me what is "pahala" in english (i get these questions a lot, they seem to think that i'm a walking dictionary). so when i thot about it, i actually don't know! if "dosa" is sin, then what is "pahala"?

next, i read a forwarded email this morning entitled "about cheese and saudara seagama". looking at this particular subject title made me wonder what the correlation of these 2 is. i read the 1st few paras and it was again another warning to not eat yet another food type cos it contains piggy insides. cheese contains this thing called "rennet", which is a thing from either a cow or a pig's intestines to freeze the cheese and keep its shape (like the square shapes in cheesedale/kraft cheese). so the argument is that how do we know that this rennet ingredient is even from a cow's intestines, if not from a pig's? and how do we know that if the cow had been slaughtered the muslim way and not just some auto-accident victim?

i SO want to be a good muslim. but it's getting harder when all the emails i open in my inbox look like junk! semuanya pakai email.. ingat semua orang check and read every single email that comes in kah? the message gets diluted the more u email the thing to. don't they realise that? plus, with all the hoaxes and junk mails and spams flying around, do we even think that this email with such a subject title could be a genuine message from God? honestly, the use of email to send out religious messages to me is over-commercialised and just doesn't jive, u know what i'm saying? cakap2 agama ni patutnya dekat masjid2 and surau2, di majlis2 agama, etc. not in cyberspace lahhh.. come on. kalau nak buat, buat betul2. memang lah nak kena ikut peredaran zaman and all that crap, but to me agama & emails just still don't gel.

pastu, everything oso cannot eat nowadays. abih tu nak makan apa? these are modern times lah, where got time to cook everyday? and there are plentiful of food to buy out there, plus dengan nafsu makan yang tak terkawal lagi, cemana nak control all this?? L.E.C.E.H.

obviously i didn't read the whole article all the way through.. there should be some explanation to the uncorrelated subject title that puzzled me just now.. and there should be a "moral of the story" at the end, which i'm too lazy to find out.

so back to the question of what is "pahala" in english, i still don't know. do i even care? i don't think so. i don't even look like i care about anything today except to think of a way to get out of this god-forsaken office and just laze about at home. i am coughing btw, so maybe i'll play that up and get an MC.

can i just feign ignorance about everything? it is so blissful there (ya, when i'm terribly sick and at the verge of death and God feigns ignorance on me, then only i'll realise huh! padan muka aku nanti).

i am bloated, irritable and tender everyfuckingwhere. no wonder i'm such a bitch. so i blame it all on my PMS.