freezing the memories

originally written on: Tuesday, September 05, 2006

THE party

it was the eve of saturday, 26th feb 2005, adrin got invited to awin's 29th bday party at the ascot. i went with him expecting to have fun and get wasted. his frens at the party were of the up-market kind. i, the natural chameleon, started to work my way around the party, trying to look as comfortable as these ppl in their environment. i think i succeeded.

an hour into the party after i've drank a few glasses of vodka, i became tipsy and more frenly. suddenly i saw this guy sitting at the dining table looking at me, and he wasnt even hiding it. and i looked back at him thinking "what the hell does this guy want from me?", and then i thot "is he looking at me or someone behind me?" in my drunken state, i got annoyed. so anyway, adrin sat down at the table and he introduced me to "jimmy" :) i thot he wasn't a malay but he said he is. we chatted for a bit and i asked if he was single and he said he is - yowza! i know i was there with my bf, but i couldnt help but liking this new guy sitting next to me. so my devious mind was working fast trying to find a way to see him again and i asked him if he was ok with me matchmaking him with my fren. he said it's ok and he trusts my judgment. i got excited and asked adrin if X is a good match, and he said just try lah. i got more excited and thot of how to meet these 2 ppl - with me around (so that i could meet him again! hehe)

the party climaxed during the cake cutting at midnite and then everyone was doing their own things.. the crowd grew in number as the nite passed on.. i got tired of pretending to be a socialite so i went to the vacant bedroom and slept on the bed alone at around 3am. a few minutes later, came this person and laid down next to me, who can it be but JIMMY - yay! (i wasn't even thinking about adrin at that time haha) we laid on the bed for quite some time, chatting a bit as both of us were drunk by that time.. then adrin came and slept with us on the bed. at about 4-5am, jimmy left, leaving me with a silly grin on my face..

THE beginnings

the next day i kept thinking of jimmy.. (i actually kept thinking of him a month after that!) on monday when i went to work, i told my colleagues that "i met someone" like i was single or smthg.. i know from that point onwards i had a crush on jimmy but i was in denial - of course lah, i was still attached to adrin mah. so the only one i told about this infatuation was azrul.. even he told me to pursue this guy.. i hid my excitement to see him behind the dates i organised for him and X. so every weekend for the next 2 months we went out cos X was too ego or too shy to call him and to ask him out personally. so i was the official "date arranger" for her.. she kept asking me if we're gonna go out with jimmy this wkend and i kept making plans for everybody.. we kept going out in a group and within those 2 months, my relationship with adrin got worse. the last time we went out in a group with jimmy was for karaoke at berjaya times square - azrul, hazmin, X, nicole, jimmy, sonya, faizol, adrin and myself. we had a gala time singing our hearts out. i sang out my frustration cos just b4 that, adrin and i had a huge row - the row that led to our separation. a blessing in disguise, really.

long story short - X was head over heels with jimmy but the feeling was not mutual. so my separation with adrin was his motivation to step in. i knew he liked me as a fren but i never knew it to be more than that. while i was keeping my attraction towards him at bay, he was doing the same!

THE stepping stone

azrul planned for all of us to go to bukit tinggi for a wkend escape. jimmy was very excited to go and he made his move b4 the trip. he asked me out for dim sum and i went with an open heart and mind as i didnt want to be frustrated if his feelings weren't mutual. after dim sum, we watched a movie (In Good Company starring Dennis Quaid and the guy from the 70s Show). i thot it was just a normal lunch in klcc, it turned out to be our first date :) (i still have the movie ticket stubs, it's now framed)

we didnt see each other during the weekdays after that lunch.. didn't even plan for anything for the next wkend cos by that time, he's made known his feelings weren't for X (altho X was very very excited to go on the bukit tinggi trip with him - the poor thing). then came the labour day wkend and on 2nd may 2005, azrul & hazmin (would-be couple) and me and jimmy went to have dinner at alexis, great eastern mall. i was so excited and nervous at the same time to see him after a week's passed. i didnt know how he really felt about me and all my feelings for him were just waiting to burst. we had dinner, chatted and then it happened. we were sitting next to each other and then he took my handphone and typed in "how did u know that i like u?" he handed the hp back to me and i was actually shocked to see what he wrote. i composed myself and typed back "i didnt know!". we had our own little conversation that way for quite some time, with azrul and hazmin in front of us in their own little world. he made it clear that he's liked me from the beginning at the party and wanted me to be more than just a fren. i was flattered and at the same time ecstatic that he feels the same way.

THE trip

bukit tinggi trip happened the next wkend after the confessions. i declared to him that i actually liked him from the start too and that i'd like to try having a relationship with him. i also told him that i just got out from a very hurtful relationship and that i didnt want him to be my rebound guy. he said he didnt want to be that too (which is a good start!)

so anyway, the drive up to bukit tinggi was very interesting. X still didnt know what had happened in the past few days ie the confessions between me and jimmy so she carried on as usual.. i sat in the middle between jimmy and X at the back seat of azrul's range rover and we discreetly held hands. X was none the wiser...

at bukit tinggi resort's 2 bedroom apartment, we relaxed and lazed about, watched dvd and still discreetly holding hands.. the wonder of it all was how could X have missed all this right under her nose? i'm really amazed at her power of observation, or the lack of it!

that nite, sleeping arrangements were very funny. the master bedroom had a queen sized bed and the other room had 2 singles. after a round of scrabble and vodkas, azrul announced to jimmy that hazmin wanted to sleep with him. i was ready to sleep on the sofa downstairs and i was only hoping that jimmy would want to accompany me downstairs while X retired in the master bedroom. well, my wish came true when he made a little bed for the both of us out of the 2 sofas. he slept beside me and said that he wanted to kiss me.. it was very special, that nite... i think he's forgotten it but he did ask me to be engaged to him that nite itself after we made out hihi ;)

THE incident

morning came and it only dawned on X that she came with 2 couples and she was the fifth wheel. she made it obvious that she was upset as she saw jimmy and i on the sofa at the bottom of the stairs hugging (or kissing i dont remember which) each other. she left the apartment and went to the cafe to get away from us. all 4 of us were obviously not ready to leave the apartment so we dilly-dallied in getting ready for breakfast.. i felt a mixture of guilt and pity towards her for kind of "taking" the guy she liked but hey they weren't going out or anything.. maybe i also felt a little bit of vindication in a sense.. i dono.. she's not an angel.. i really don't know what i should've done.. so i left it at that.

after bukit tinggi, X and i were never the same again. we had a cold war and i apologised for what happened up in the hills.. i think most of all, she felt betrayed by me but it was beyond my power. jimmy never felt any chemistry with her and she can't force him to like her right? it was just fated that jimmy and i were to become a couple the complicated way...

THE (whirlwind) courtship

not long after then, we went to penang, just jimmy and i.. in penang, he confessed to me that he had noble intentions with me and that he wasnt in it just for a ride. he wanted to meet my parents and all that.. wow. i was confused and kept asking him, has he really made up his mind? i told him "i'm not perfect, you know.." he said "but you're perfect for me.." (awwww..)

he met with umi and walid after about 3 mths into the courship (we went steady on 5 may 05 when i declared my liking for him), proposed to me in july and the official merisik followed in nov.. we were really in a daze at the speed of our courtship and where it was taking us... i had cold feet but i knew i was ready to dive into the deep end of the pool with him...

THE proposal

on 28th july 05, he brought me to langkawi for its romantic settings and background.. b4 we went, i was just talking to my sister and said that the best proposal jimmy could ever make was while we were sunbathing on the sandy beaches in langkawi.. i would be lying down next to him and he would turn to me and ask for my hand in marriage with a single rose.. well, to my surprise, it DID happen just the way i imagined it! (minus the rose though ;).. i don't know how he read my mind but it only goes to show how much in love we were with each other..

we were lying down on the mat on the beach after he took a dive in the sea.. we were hugging each other and he suddenly said, "miss zeeda daughter of yazid, will you marry me?".. i reacted by smiling at him cos i didnt think it was a real proposal. he then shook me and said this is for real, and then i laughed my nervousness off and said YES! we then sealed it with a kiss...

THE life

this 11 sept 06, it will be our 6th month wedding anniversary.. we have our downs, but the ups justify why we are together.. i only pray to God to help me take control of my flaws and be the right soulmate for him as he is for me.. we are planning to have our little mini-mes in the near future as a symbol of the union of our love..and i hope we live a long life of being in love with each other... together forever, for better or for worse...

*this post was taken out from the cokelightonly site due to an anonymous stalker making bad accusations via the comments section.

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13 Feb 08
AN update

next month it'll be our 2 years' anniversary. our first year of marriage was very rocky, as is normal with any other newly married couples due to the adjustments we have to make living with somebody new. but now, i can confidently say that our love and respect has gotten stronger and we will try to build a happy family.

he's a very good husband to me... very loving, caring, gentle, funny, understanding, very thoughtful, grounded and practical, and most of all very patient... i know he will be a good father to our children and he'll continue to be the best hubby to me for as long as we live, insyaAllah...

the end of the beginning of the end of the beginning - does it make sense to u?

newsflash: to my geng tekbes, pada ari sabtu bersamaan 5hb mei ini, saya sudah terlupa bahawasanya kita telah menge-book date itu utk sesi gosip kita sekali lagi. saya akan mengalami sedikit masalah teknikal pada hari itu di mana saya hanya boleh berjumpa pada waktu pagi iaitu dari subuh hingga ke 11.30 pagi sahaja. sudah saya umumkan kepada puan pengelola tentang masalah saya ini. jadi jika semua orang boleh berjumpa pada masa yang saya berikan, saya boleh men-join sesi ini. otherwise, saya kena pass ke lain hari. mintak maap dan harap maklum ye :)

ps: swensen's subang parade sounds fab! (dekat ngan umah aku maa hehe).

-posted at 5.10pm-

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today is the first day i shall go into limbo mode at my current employment. the powers that be have accepted my resignation and once they heard where i'm going, they said GO. and that's exactly what i plan on doing! :)

anyhow... on a different note, i made a boo-boo. and i feel super terrible about it now.

what do u do when u made a mistake that u thought was not a mistake at the time but the more u think about it, u should've stopped where u should've but u didn't and u let it get worse and u couldn't just stop midway cos that'd be like tergantung so u just continue the mistake until infinity. well, not infinity lah.. but still. the wound has been made, the scar will definitely be embedded and the memories shall remain. i just hope we learn from our mistakes more than we dwell on them. that'd be like, stoopid (the dwelling, that is).

nevertheless, i do have some ke-tak-puasan-hati-ness. with certain people. and how they got into the equation. aku geram sampai termimpi-mimpi. but never mind, only God will membalas "jasa" mereka *hmph*.

ok so in the spirit of cleaning my slates and after Amy's act of changing her blog address, i felt compelled to do the same as i feel that "cokelightonly" no longer represents who i am now. nor does "the journal of a wandering / errant mind". these names were coined some 4 years ago when i started my blog as a personal online journal which nobody but me could read.

but as i've grown with experience from then to now, i feel that it's time to let go of the old memories that are laced with some badness and some goodness, some sadness and some happiness...

i have now become a slightly different person. for better or for worse, i'm not quite sure which. but different, nonetheless.

about my writing, i'm not sure if u will read a new zeeda or just the same old one. i don't know how much different i will be, i guess it all depends on my mood that day.

so by tomorrow, may 4, 2007, u will no longer find me here.

if u find me at my new crib, u find me. and if u don't, u don't. i stop no one from forwarding my new address to others, neither do i promote it. i suffer no losses and i don't think u have, too. but i do hope that u have enjoyed reading me and felt the happiness and the sorrow i felt during those penned times...

and to the frens who often leave comments, thank u guys. u are well appreciated :)

let's begin a new chapter full of more happiness and sorrow...

shall we?

tag: life is like a LAYERED box of chocolates

in my blogging lifetime, i've only been tagged once before. this is the 2nd time, by Kak Dilla. yang ini aku tak gemor sangat lah cos soalan2 dia semua very prying indeed. contrary to popular belief, i am not a disclosure-whore. yes i might tell u when i've had or will have sex (semalam takde, maybe tonite heh heh) but other things... hmm... *thinking*

tapi takpe, since sudah kena tag, macam amanah la pulak, kena buat jugak. jadi silakan baca - kalau mau lah.

Layer One: On the Outside
Name: Princess Sharifah Nor Paris Ramzeeda Hilton ibni Tuanku Syed Yazid Jamalullail (the clan name tu betul k)
Birthdate: 1st June 1977 (dah tuaaaa dah aku ni)
Current status: Am i really married?
Eye colour: Blue of course
Hair colour: Unnatural blonde
Righty or Lefty: Ambidextrous

easy enuf...

Layer Two: On the Inside
My heritage: Heritage tu menda? my paternal nenek was a siamese. that's why ramai orang ingat aku cinak. tapi my dad looks nothing like a siamese, mcm indon ada gak hehe.
My fears: God the Almighty and neraka (no joke ok)
My weaknesses: None (fuyoh)
My perfect pizza: What does that have got to do with the other questions?

oh kayyyy...

Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My thoughts first thing when i wake up: Must i wake up? must i not? what time is it man? why is there someone calling me at this godforsaken hour? oh, that's the alarm clock. sheesh.
My bedtime: Kalau ada permainan konda kondi atau batu seremban atau galah panjang, around midnight. otherwise, around 11.30ish.
My most missed memory: Being in my mommy's womb

fuh, sangat la challenging.

Layer Four: My Picks
Pepsi or Coke: Coke Light Only, PLEASE.
McDonald's or Burger King: Booger King - the food of the royalties
Single or group dates: Depends. if i'm tired of looking at the hubs' face, then group dates are very much welcomed.
Adidas or Nike: Who cares? does anybody care?
Tea or Nestea: Both oso can.
Chocolate or vanilla: If ice cream, then vanilla. if the real deal, chocs are my second makanan suji.
Cappucino or coffee: If drinks, then cappucino. if ice cream, then coffee (haagen dasz is da bomb)

isk semua nak tau.

Layer Five: Do I
Smoke: Quit when i said "I Do" but sometimes tu ada lah a stick or two here and there *points guilty finger at heidey*
Curse: Hell yeah! mostly fuck and shit, and in all their variations - fark, eff, shite, shiet (pronounced differently tau), sheet, sheets, shierts, etc.
Take a shower: WTF?
Have a crush: On my hubs
Think i've been in love: With the hubs? still am...
Go to school: Not since i was 17
Want to get married: The question should be: wantED to get married? then, DUH.
Believe in myself: Believe that i am beautiful and slim?
Think i'm a health freak: Hubs is. that's enuf health freaking for the both of us.

what kinda questions are these?

Layer Six: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: The last time was on my hen's night and hell was that fun! :)
Gone to the mall: Baru je pegi tadi masa lunch - court's mammoth with kayun
Eaten sushi: Does tempura udon count?
Dyed your hair: I just said, i'm an unnatural blonde. DUH.

yennadeyyy..

Layer Seven: Have I Ever
Played a stripping game: Nope.
Changed who i am to fit in: Usually other people yang change who they are to try and fit into my world. howzat? heh.

apa dis...

Layer Eight: Age
I am hoping to get married: Not "am" dear.. hel-low.

soalan cepumas betullah. kalau aku belum kawin lagi sure dah marah dah..

Layer Nine: What Was I Doing
1 min ago: Tak relevan la soalan ni.. of course la buat tag ni! kalau nak tau sangat - korek idung.
1 hour ago: Still doing this an hour ago.. i take my sweet time.
4.5 hours ago: Court's mammoth - refer Layer 6
1 month ago: Rethinking my life goals
1 year ago: Enjoying the "inai" on my fingers kot..

aku berak pon dia nak tau bila kot.

Layer Ten: Finish the Sentence
I love: Me
I feel: Cold
I hate: Being cold
I hide: From my boss
I need: Body heat

Layer Eleven: Tag 5 People
Silalah buat tag ini jika tuan-tuan dan puan-puan rasa macam bosan dan takde menda lain nak buat. macam aku.

Sekian, terima kasih Kak Dilla. NOT :P (no anger intended)

ps: please excuse the sarcasm. i'm a pms-ing biyatch.

hullo mr. wabbit @ ching chong!

last night at around 10pm, coming back from some grocery shopping, we found a cute little hippity hop rabbit dekat2 dgn our house. it was hopping alone and jim didn't want to stop at first but i wanted to and i racun-ed him saying that if it were gypsie that was lost, we'd be so sad that nobody helped her find her way home.

upon hearing that, he immediately stopped *racun worked*

i hopped out of the car to go and catch it. i thot it was gonna be a hard task but amazingly, mr. wabbit was very easy to catch. it was as if he was willing himself to be caught. so i caught him and we went to buy some vegetables to feed him.

i asked my next-door neighbor if she knew anyone around who rears rabbits. she said yes and showed which house it was. i told jim of the news and the then-reluctant daddy suddenly seemed sad that we couldn't keep it.

mr. wabbit, or ching chong as i call it (i suspected that he was chinese, and true enuf, he is!) is very tame. he didn't meronta-ronta when i held him and came to like the kits quite quickly. daddy even cleaned the cage for ching chong...

panda: what's goin on behind this door! i want my food and i want to take a piss!!

gypsie: rilek ah brader... ko ni kancheong ah.. buat malu cathood je.

(please excuse the hairy human legs yah)

panda: oh finally, i'm soooo hungry! *nyum nyum gobble gobble*

gypsie: woi come la look who's inside our cage! what's that?

panda: pesal tinga dia besor sangat? bulu sama je cam kita.

gypsie: aku macam ingat-ingat lupa la dia ni rupa macam saper...

gypsie: ahh! macam ancestors aku kot!! I SIT LIKE HIM!

both: *ogling* oooh aahhh

panda: ehh ehh dia main lagu hip hop la, jom nari! *senget2 kepala*

panda: dik, kita tunggu jelah kat sini.. tengok apa dia nak buat. sapa lagi kuat dia yang akan menang!!

gypsie: wa ok je bang. tapi menang apa? ada contest ke? *dumb blond*

ching chong: woii blah lahh!! aku nak berak pon tak senang. isk. nyesal nyer aku lari rumah!

...my heart is fixed...

my sweetheart is coming home today yayssssss :D

i'm so happy i could die!

no more lonely nights
no more hugging the pillows tight
no more images of ghosts in the kitchen
no more eating kentucky fried ciken
no more sleeplessness
no more loneliness
and best of all
no more sexless!

wakaka
my miserable attempt at rhyming. fergeddit. heh.

please click on the link!

if u don't find this funny, u should just go and die.

bi nais, yo.

apa-apa jelah

said bye bye to hubba hubba yesterday. this is our first time apart lepas kawin. i felt funny sleeping alone on the big bed not having his constant tugging and pulling and pushing and funny sounds in the middle of the night. hmm best jugak tido sorang ni - nyenyak siot ;)

cleaned the kitty litter pan for the first time evar last night. yuck. this was one of the most dreaded things i felt when hubs said he was going away for 6 days (bukannya sebab i'll miss him? ;)

watched SpongeBob SquarePants last 2 nights and a light came on in my head - why didn't i name my new car "SpongeBob" before? they're both yellow and square. so i am now officially changing its name to SpongeBob from Little Miss Sunshine. please call it Bob for short *renjis air mawar on Bob* :D

yesterday edmun the loser moron said to me:
him: u put on weight ah zeeda?
me: *not even looking at him* shut up lah.

how do i not seethe? do i not bleed? padan lah takde girlfren lagi! dah 30 tahun pon tak pandai2 lagi. eeeeeee!

wiki woo has passed away, guys. she is now hanging off a hook at restaurant bee fatt in kaypong. pray that she'll be delicious to her eaters, i fed her apples and bathed her everyday u know.

in replacement is a new pet i adopted. she was saved from those people who like to eat exotic animals. she was among the turtles saved last week. u can click on her to play, pet & feed her some steak.

please welcome bici boo sook :)

i am so bored at work.

wait...... what work?

update @ 11.41 am: could this be true? update on 20 Apr @ 9.17 am: oh yeah damn straight it's true!!

American Idol, in my perspective

- sanjaya is a closet gay. it would be hair-raising if he won (pun intended).

- phil has the personality of a snail. bila nak kena kick out ni?

- hailey has the personality that equals a lightbulb. i agree with simon scowl - she's got a good tactic of showing lotsa legs to get votes. how slutty is that.

- blake is ok, but the mulut a bit senget, doncha think so? still he doesn't have the x-factor..

- jordin is a good singer but can't beat the 2 divas - "kiki" lakisha & melinda dr. doolittle.

- chris the timberlake-look&soundalike is too teeny bopperish for me lah. his dancing movements are somewhat cacat to me. sorry.

- either kiki or melinda will win this competition. i hope.

ps: i miss the fat chris. now he's got personality *sighs*

an almost perfect weekend - well, *nothing* is perfect, right?

remember the announcement i was telling u about? telling u later.

the wkend started off on friday night when we went to fulfill our visual satisfaction with a movie, The Reaping.. good movie, very biblical-horror in nature so i didn't really know what was coming next or whatever in relation to the plague yada yada.. but all in all, a good friday night show.

next morning, we woke up at around 10ish and i did some laundry. had lunch at some nasi campur restaurant and then i felt a sense of utter dead-weighing sleepiness. so after that we went home to lepaks. balik je rumah, i slept from 3-6pm i think.. damn syiok man. malam tu we went to have dinner at Hartamas Square, then went to Bangsar ViIIage for a look-see cos we hadn't been there yet.

Bangsar ViIIage (of the damned ;) is a league of its own. even the Vincci there is of premium scale i.e. MAHAL. but the shoes were damn lovely lah.. a pair of court shoes would cost u somewhere around RM139.90 to RM189.90 ish. nothing i picked up was less than RM100. go figure.

other shops there were of course the mahals kind. some were unfamiliar to me but jual benda2 biasa at a premium price. very snotty indeed.

but i did find a good accessories shop - Aldo. their bags are reasonable la to me. i'm thinking of getting this black (what else) handbag for work at RM166. it's big and roomy, perfect for mrs. hypochondriac here. i can put all sorts of meds i want in there and maybe a small sundry shop hehe. i couldn't get it with the hubs lingering around the other day cos nanti he'll be thinking, "waa banyaknya duit bini aku beli benda2 yang dia dah ada. bila nak beli grocery, aku jugak kena bayor". haha maybe he won't think that, but what if he does? beli belakang dia is mucho better than depan2 dia, kan?

so anyway, as we strolled out of Bangsar ViIIage, we heard a live band playing at The Social. kaypohchi modes on, we went to see what the ruckus was all about and to our delight, there was this 7-piece jazz band with a good girl singer. uber coolness! we decided to "have a drink" (teh la bukan alco ok) and listen to the girl croon. it was worth it. we haven't enjoyed a jazz band in yonks and this was a much pleasant welcome.

balik rumah lepas tu, citer "Crash" was on channel 42 so aku pun tengok la while the lover read his newspapers (yes he likes to read his papers at night when the whole world already knows what's going on) and we slept at around 3am.

sunday morning, woke up at 8am to let the cleaner in, tido balik sampai pukul 10.30 gitu. got up and watched some tv until afternoon and then had buffet lunch at Sheraton Subang. afterwards, we went to Sunway Pyramid to do some random shopping then went back home to (what else) sleep again. i cooked some pasta for dinner.

at about 9.15pm i was just about to lipat the laundry when the lights went off. aiyoo power failure la pulak.. this is my first time ever since i moved in this house. it was a bleedingly hot night so jim took me out where there were lights. the whole of Ara D'sara was affected so kitaorang pegi mamak, minum sambil baca paper. half hour later they corrected the problem and we went back home to a brightly lit house with panda doing a circus act pacing on the window ledge. sheeesh.

watched some CSI right before i slept and the night was spent dreaming about running away from smthg. now on monday morning, my body is tired (from the running) and i feel a little bit dizzy (still from the running).

trivia: i don't run in my waking hours, so does running in my sleep count as exercise? :D

so there goes my almost perfect wkend... hubba-hubba is gonna go offshore in miri this wednesday to next monday, hence the "almost". it's like he's bribing me with good memories so that when he's away, i won't feel so sad. sigh... my "almost" perfect husband is "almost" too sweet sometimes.. (yes yes i am grateful)

all in all, the wkend was kinda perfect cos i got to sleep a lot hehe. i like :)

ok so now comes the big announcement.

i didn't ask for this ok, i wasn't even looking. but that's why i said aku ni murah rejeki kot.

NOTE to kay and abang lan (or mana2 orang ofis yang baca blog aku): please don't tell anyone in the office yet, especially our dept. just keep it to yourself first and i'll tell them when the time is right.

i received a call from the national oil & gas company for a job interview. it totally came out of the blue. so i went, expecting nothing (cos i've gone there for interviews before i started working here but they became silent afterward when they saw how much i was asking for). but this time, they called me in for a 2nd interview with the ceo, and a third with the HR. and last two fridays, i got an offer letter.

so ya guys, i'm gonna be changing jobs quite soon. i just wanna emphasize that i didn't go out looking for a job, it looked for me.

honestly? i feel like i'm in a relationship that's moving too fast. i'm not quite certain if i'm ready to make the jump (again), but when is "ready" anyways?

the funny thing is, i submitted my application and resume to them 3 years ago ok. tu yang terkejut badak tu.

i haven't tendered in my resignation here yet, am strategizing my departure. i would like to have a week off before i start at the new place lah. rileks2 dulu... i might start there on my bday.
so itu lah announcement aku.

sekian.

shout-outs!

today is fellow blogger - mr. acat's 28th bday!

hapsie birthday to uuuuuuuu

hapsie birthday to uuuuuuuu

hapsie birthday to ah-chatttt

hapsie birthday to uuuuuuuu

woohooo! hope the day brings u much happiness, albeit without the lovely senorita, but i'm sure u'll be filled with much love today and the days into your old age with her, together forever :)

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in conjunction with his bday, it is also my 13th month wedding anniversary! woohooo!!

morning laid: check

lovey-dovey phone calls during the day: check

flowers delivered to office: check (see below)

dinner: check

get laid again: check check check!

muahahahaa

(kalau tak tahan baca blog aku, baca the disclaimer kat atas tu *harummphs*)

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two persons yesterday thought i was a freshie from college. isn't that cause for a shout-out?

what a month they made mine!

heeee =)

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OMG I GOT FLOWERS FROM THE LOVER!!!

they're a dozen of white roses, just the way i like 'em, plus there's a fattening factor of fererros to boot!

tonight will be very sinful i tell ya teehee carnal!!

reminiscing our 1 year anniversary in fuket

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ok this one is not a real shout-out but just a random note.

i'm mighty blessed with my kemurahan-rejekiness. i thank God the Almighty for all his blessings throughout my life. there will be an announcement soon. insyaAllah.

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a very innocent conversation in the office between a totally naive girl and this guy

girl: hey jonas, u gemuk lepas masuk kerja kat hyundai eh?

jonas: ---*squirm squirm* erm yah *erk*---

wahahahaa! :D

-5.15pm-

chalkablockastalka

someone told me once, u haven't really made it in the virtual world until u have a stalker.

and do i have a blog stalker for u.

this person, guy or girl, disguises him/herself as the infamous "anonymous", also known as "pengecut".

dia asyik la tulis komen-komen yang amat nasty kepada aku yang innocent ni. aku tak paham kenapalah dia tu tersangatlah pengecut dan kijam dan tulis benda-benda yang jahat-jahat kat aku. kalau tak suka kat aku, cakap jelah, kan? pastu, kalau dah menyampah kat aku, yang paling aku tak paham sekali is kenapa dia still baca aku punya blog? sah-sah la apa yang aku tulis semua adalah benda-benda yang dia benci dengar pasal aku, betul tak?

aku baru je bukak blog aku pagi ni and ada 3 comments from this person. first comment dia merapu la. the second comment tu dia still tak sedar yang the comment moderation is on, pastu dia letak la nama dia as "mingdynasty", yang last sekali tu baru dia sedar (lembabnya dia ni) and again tulis under anonymous. last komen dia, dia cakap - siap kena check and approvve baru boleh masuk comment...haha..so not cool...confirmed!!!..retarded.

kawan-kawan sekalian - ada ke patut? saper yang retarded ni? dia ke aku? dia yang tak tau pasal comment moderation ni punya technology, aku pulak yang retarded? ada sesaper kenal budak gila mingdynasty ni tak?

i turned on the comments moderation setting because (1) i received some spam saying that i won USD5,000 bla3 and obviously i didn't win that much money right, and (2) last time i checked, this is my blog and nobody has to pay to come and read it, so sukati aku lah nak bubuh setting apa-apa, betul tak?

yang kelakarnya, dia geram kat aku sangat tu sebab aku cakap aku "cool" in the previous entry. dia cakap aku tak cool. eh, salah ke aku buat lawak kata diri aku cool? dia tu yang takde humour bone, aku pulak yang retarded?

aku cuma paling tak paham mentality orang-orang macam ni. dia tu yang tak cool, dah la pengecut, tulis comment under anonymous, pastu keep stalking aku punya blog, pastu leave nasty comments. tah pape tah.

saper yang retarded ni korang??? tolong lah cakap kat aku.

paling senang, kalau tak suka sangat kat aku, like u have a personal vendetta against me, please be a man/woman and have the balls to tell it to my face. or email me personally about the things that i've done to u using your REAL NAME. tapi i know that u won't do that kan? cos u're a pengecut. that's all that u are.

FYI, i'm not perfect. aku dah dapat nasty comments from anonymouses a coupla times dah. ayat-ayat sakit hati tu lebih kurang sama je aku tengok. ada sekali tu, ada sorang anonymous ni leave a comment yang dengki kat husband-husband kawan-kawan aku (tapi aku tak publish la that comment). dia cakap semua husband2 kitaorang tak handsome. lerss.. gila ke apa. itu dah pemberian Tuhan lah, how can u comment on someone's looks? that's so mean. ko tu supermodel ke? kalau ye pon, Tuhan boleh ambik je your looks whenever He likes it (kena eksiden teruk or smthg) if u continue to riak and comment on other's looks, baru padan muka kau nanti. furthermore, dah jodoh kitaorang dengan orang-orang yang tak handsome tapi sayang kat kitaorang gilababi, kau jeles ek? u "poor" thing.

anyway, i still dono if these anonymouses are the same person or different people, but to me, they're all the same lah. cowards disguised in sheep skin - mmmbbeekkkk.

so, puas ke hati kau buat orang sakit hati? kalau dah tak suka, toksah lah baca. senang je. yang busuk hati dengan aku sangat tu kenapa? apa aku dah buat kat kau? cakap jelah so that we all can move on with our lives. why hold so much grudge for so long? or how long has it been? aku pun tak tau lah engkau ni. u don't have a life eh? kesiannnn kau. if u find so much "joy" in leaving nasty comments on people's blogs, then u're a pathetic reason for a human being lah. HATI BUSUK.

the least u could do to redeem your dignity is to use your real name. kan korang?

ok, aku nak jadi LEBIH "retarded" by turning off the anonymous comments setting (can he/she catch the sarcasm or is he/she the retarded one?) so that nobody can leave comments being anonymouses anymore. puas ati aku.

GET A LIFE la u stalkers. no good will come out of what u're doing, u know. it's all about karma. u'll see what will happen to u nanti...

cool as a cucumber, only poorer by a few digits

i had a slight disappointment yesterday. i got my monthly red flag, which indicates that i'm not u-know-what. if i weren't expecting anything, i'd be glad for the flag to arrive at my doorstep, but not this time around..

anywho, as the weak little human being that i am, i felt a wee bit put down by the circumstances. so in my moment of weakness, i went out in search of an instant gratifier (read: major retail therapy). i purchased smthg that i would've bought in a few months' time anyway... why not now, right?

i had bought another telecommunications device (shut up!).

i know, u guys must be saying "omg this girl is crazy, didn't she just get one like last month?"

wellll if u wanna go into specifics, the last one was purchased not as vaguely as last month, but specifically a month and 12 days back (as at today). plus, i like owning two at a time so that i can switch whenever my mood strikes it. so the one purchased last month-&-12-days is still around at home, hibernating as we speak. i bartered (and topped up a few bucks) the business-looking sister (which had reached and way passed its 6 months lifespan in my care) and upgraded it to a flipper which still has the business looks of its predecessor. i'm mighty happy even though i had to dip into my savings to get it.

it oozes coolness. and cool is what zeeda is. heh.

the ultimate moral of the story is: retail therapy is the best thing that God ever invented for women!!!
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i've watched Heroes until the last episode before the finale shows on april 23 (in the states lah).

watch out peeps! i'm sitting at the edge of my seat almost peeing in my pants waiting for it... but of course i won't show it.

cos i'm cool like that ;)

-5.51 pm-

songs on my mind

jordan knight & debbie gibson - artists of the 90s (the has beens)


ronan keating & leann rimes (artists of the now)
ronan is so yummilicous!

my sunday dids

woke up at 7.30 am with a full bladder, emptied it and couldn't go back to sleep. cleaner came at 8 am, let her in, went back to bed and read a book with the lover snuggling on my neck.

went to a wedding of an ex-schoolmate in sungai buloh at noon. met with the old girls... didn't talk with them much though.. i was too tired from the lack of morning sleep.

went back home and slept for 2 hours. fuh best giler.

woke up and went down to kitchen to *ehem* cook. i made baked pasta and grilled veges. lover said they're sedap but a little bit too bland. hmph. nak makan dengan sambal kot (he's so melayu i tell u :P ).

there were some stray dogs lying around our house and brave little midget gypsie was so curious, she sat near the dogs to have an up-close-and-personal look. abang panda sat behind and looked only. jadi jaga le konon.

today is sissy in law, emy's 29th birthday - happy birthday M! i know u won't ever read my blog, but it's the thought that counts kan :)

HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL!

be. nice.

ps: brazillians are awesome! ;D

100th entry celebration!

ya i write too much... no, more like i think and put my thoughts on paper too much. so this is my 100th entry in like i dono how long... who cares.

let's celebr8 it with photos, shall we?

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we had this dinner to attend last saturday at shangri-la, kl.. it was one of the rahman's niece's husband's parents' 55th wedding anniversary. damn lavish. dresscode was glamorous. wtf?

the bros & bros in law

the sissies and sissies in law

this was as glamorous as i could get.. geez.

with some relatives' kids

with nassir wahab

*psst* up close he had bad wrinkles under his eyes ewww

with nina juren, cousin by marriage

*psst* now this is one elegant lady.. i always imagine her as the "datin" in "datin diaries"

yang lain sibuk jugak nak bergambar dengan artis pencen ni hehe (that's what she calls herself ok)

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guess who was a guest and sang a few songs as her present?

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cik siti wan kembang (the baju ler)

siti singing a joget number and dancing with the celebrated couple

from right: sean ghazi, nassir wahab, datuk k, sitot, and some dude enter-prame

diorg balik awal...

*on kaypohchi mode* takut kena ambush kot si datuk k tu.. alah pasal dia belasah kawan anak dia tu.. takkan tak tau kot..

aku pun amik chan la posing with siti

abes daaaa....

didn't plan it at all, in fact, i planned for bigger things for myself.. how ironic is that part 2

didn't plan for this post to be the 2nd part, but i didn't plan for a lot of things, remember?

i was drifting off to sleep last night and i was thinking: how did i get here?

i could've gotten married with my 1st ever boyfriend of 5 years (let's call him JJ) but i didn't. when he proposed to me, i was only 20 or 21 and i was still ambitious back then. he told me that when i'm finished with my studies, he would send his rombongan to see my family.. that proposal shocked my system, didn't do him any good at all. it made me think: do i really want to spend the rest of my life with this guy? just one guy? will i not experience anymore butterflies of new love? this milestone actually propelled me to look for another boyfriend. i realised that i didn't really love JJ and that there's more to life out there.

i realised that i wanted to be somebody someday and i had to work hard to get there.. i mean, i could've just taken the easy way by marrying him, have his kids and take care of our home... but i didn't. and that said a lot.

i planned to work my way up to a managerial position in "5 years' time". let me just first say, what a load of crap those sayings are - the "in 5 years' time" thing.. it's so over-used in company recruitments. how would u know where u'll be in 5 years? i mean, yes u can work your butt off to get where u want to be, but as i said, kita hanya mampu merancang, hanya Tuhan yang menentukannya... so to interviewers who like to ask that kind of question, please don't expect to get an honest answer because for all u know, the person sitting in front of u:

(choose your horror story)
a) could get into a horrible accident
b) could get robbed and shot
c) could die from a tsunami
d) could be called for a family emergency in Timbuktu
OR
e) the world could come to an end..

..the next day. it's not fair to ask one to see into one's future when all the future predictions can only be done by Him, right?

so anyhoo, i'm still a nobody now, but i know that if i had married JJ, i wouldn't be enjoying this kind of financial freedom, gathered this much experience, have this kind of opinions... in short, i would've been a much different person with different experiences.. i could've even become a janda by the age of 25, who knows.. so i'm glad i didn't marry JJ.

the "bigger things" that i planned for myself when i was younger, they weren't that big to begin with la.. but it's also made me realise that if i had become the manager that i was planning to be, i wouldn't have been ready.. heck, i don't even want to be a manager now yet cos then i'd have to "manage" more things & more people and hold more responsibilities.. i am so not ready for all that.. i'm still working out my messed-up personal life!

where i am right now is purely by accident.. i just have to decide soon whether i like where i am right now or not... if i don't, changes must be put in place.. and if i'm ok, then i'll be glad that i am... mesti bersyukur mah...

i can plan the hell out of every planner in the world for my future (career/personal) and make myself a somebody, but the good thing about being a gemini is that i can also take a backseat and go with the flow.. be more spontaneous.. i think that gives me more character...

geminians kick butt!

[update at 3.30 pm]
i'm getting sick of doing PR... correction: i'm not getting sick of it, i am sick of it. total and utter vile. i never went out to find a job in PR, it found me. i wanted to be in advertising (cos i thot it was cool like that, which i later found out that it's not that cool according to my advertising frens). it's been almost 8 years and i'm still doing the same old thing. meeting up, inviting, talking, writing for the media seems like a sordid chore now than a joy.. well, it never was a joy, but at least it was smthg that i do without question, u know what i mean?

do things happen for a reason? what's my reason? i need a reason!

didn't plan it at all, in fact, i planned for bigger things for myself.. how ironic is that.

i received this in the email from syaz yesterday.. i thot it was smthg fun to do, so i having nothing to do indulged in the quiz.

these were my answers:

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For My Friends, take time to care, because to have a friend you must first be a friend. Hope I receive it back from you! Read through the comments below about your friend and then make sure you read the instruction at the bottom. Have fun!

1. What time is it? 10.50 am
2. Where were you born? KL
3. Ever been to Alaska? Why would i?
4. Ever been toilet papering? WTF?
5. Loved someone so much it made you cry? Ya-haa… *having flashbacks*
6. Been in a car accident? Who hasn’t?
7. Croutons or bacon bits: Can’t eat bacon.
8. Favorite day of the week? Wednesday - it was the day both me and the lover were born on!
9. Favorite Restaurant: No faves.
10. Favorite Flower: Don't really like flowers, but if i had to choose, it'd be white roses.
11. Favorite Drink: CokeLightOnly *wink*
12. Favorite ice cream: Haagen Dasz’ Coffee flavoured… *drools*
13. Favorite fast food restaurant? KFC
14. What color is your bedroom carpet? Don’t have one.
15. How many times have you failed your driver's test? I’m a fantastic driver, how could I have failed my test? Sheesh.
16. Before this one, from whom did you get your last e-mail from? My friend asking me to check on the price of a handphone she wants to buy.. do I look like a taukeh kedai handphone to u? :P
17. What do you do most often when you are bored? Read or sleep or watch tv... or sleep.
18. Bedtime: 11ish
19. Who will respond to this e-mail the quickest? Let’s see who’s got nothing better to do like me :)
20. Who is the person you sent this to that is least likely to respond? Sikayun [she actually replied! wowwww!]
21. Who is the person that you are most curious to see their answers? entah
22. Ford or Chevy: Ford.
23. What are you listening to right now: my annoying colleague answering her telephone in a very annoying way.
24. What are your favorite colors: blue.
25. How many tattoos do you have? Can’t have any.
26. How many pets do you have? One lovely midget exotic short-haired cat and one pondan cat, who’s so loud he could shake the tiles off the roof. I’m thinking of sending him back to the shelter.. tsk tsk.
27. Which came first the chicken or the egg? or…
28. What would you like to accomplish before you die? I don’t aim so high…
29. How many people are you sending this e-mail to? Just a few, don’t have many frens who care about these things…

RETURN DIRECTIONS: Now, here's what you're supposed to do... And please do not spoil the fun. Hit forward, delete my answers and type in your answers. Then send this to a whole bunch of people you know INCLUDING the person who sent it to you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known facts about those who know you. Remember to send it back to the person who sent it to you.

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i received replies from the people whom i forwarded this quiz to and amazingly, answers to a coupla questions strangely contain a common denominator. hmmmm...

from sonta sonata:
Who will respond to this e-mail the quickest? Zeed of course

from yuyun:
Who will respond to this e-mail the quickest? Well im only sending to you guys and zeed sent it first and ya she would be the first to answer this if she hadn’t already.

from the crazycat:
Who is the person you sent this to that is least likely to respond? zeeda..oppsss..she already answered..hehehehe..unless she has so many free time, she might do it again..hahahaha

see?? hmmmm... aku ni takde keja sangat ke ah?

my reputation with my frens is "the girl whose job is checking her emails".

i didn't plan to be like this...

should i be worried...?

[in retrospect:
i DO have work, don't think aku makan gaji buta all the time... it's just that, i like to give each email the attention it screams for, is that such a crime? hihi

but seriously, what i mean is, shouldn't i be re-thinking about my life goals and shit? cos what i planned for myself when i was younger is not what i'm doing now.. i know lah, kita hanya mampu merancang, hanya Tuhan yang menentukannya.. tapi i'm not that irresponsible to leave it all to Him mah.. and He would be angry too if i solely left my fate to Him, i'm sure... kita kena ikhtiar & do the best we can, kan?

my point is, i don't know what the hell i want to do with my life... i'll have to seriously re-think things...]

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i'm calling my new car "little miss sunshine" (like the movie) cos it's yellow.

a car review perhaps? if u can just humour me for a minute here.. so...

the hyundai getz 1.4 is a very relaxing car to drive, it rides and handles super smoothly (i'm not saying this cos i work for the company. and no, i'm not getting paid for this). i say relaxing because it is just that - relaxing. i don't have to strain my muscles and become mrs plasticwoman to move the steering wheels, and i don't have to have bionic vision to look at the blind spots during parking.

talking about parking, it is fantastically easy to park. manouvering is a cinch.

space-wise, similar to the myvi. what can u expect from a small/compact car, kan... don't la expect u can fit your almari baju yang besar in there.

price for the CKD version is definitely affordable. u can buy the inokom make, which is just as great, has exactly the same specs but is less expensive (from RM54k+ compared to the CBU units that start from RM70k+). inokom getz only has the 1.4 model but hyundai getz comes in the 1.3, 1.4 & 1.6 models.

also, there are many cubby-holes where u can put your knick-knacks around the interior, like coins & hairclips & keys & lipsticks... i like :)

to make things better, it was voted the best small car of 2006 by Cars, Bikes & Trucks, NST.

in short, it's perfect for a girl.

and if the getz were a boy, i'd make him my menantu (kay, jibby is still my numero uno hehe).

posted at 2.40 pm

ferry boats

i SO love grey's anatomy.

i dreamt of derek shepherd last night. dammit he's hot. seriously. (i also dreamt of u baby, derek's fictional. oh... and u're hot too! seriously!!).

i have finished part 1 of season 3 last wkend, which was yesterday. i neglected my wifely duties just to watch them. and the hubs (looked like) he didn't mind it (luv u hunnybuns!). he even made his own breakfast cos i crept out of bed in the morning to watch the goddamned addictive thing somewhere else. haha.

GA is so awesome, i can't even begin to describe it.

season 3 will give u a lot of surprises - tears (lotsa tears, ber-bucket-bucket load of tears), laughs, smiles, familiarity, recognition, aha moments - the whole nine tumbling emotional yards. although i haven't got the part 2 (which i will soonish), i will revel in the awesomeness of part 1 and replay the episodes in my head over and over again.

GA is my life guru right now.

i've learned that
- making mistakes is not the end of the world, although i've made quite a few up till now, and learning the hell to not repeat them..
- love will find its way to u, if u truly believe in it..
- time will heal your wounds, no matter how deep it is..
- the scars will remain, but u will forgive... in time...

ahhh... the wisdom of zeeda yazid, it never ceases! (hihi) so if u need any advice, i'm all ears :)

omg i SO want to ride those goddamned ferry boats in seattle.

and omg i am SO meredith right now (just like i was SO carrie bradshaw back then hehe).

oh ya someone died, actually, 2 people died, someone got super rich, one couple got back together, one couple divorced, someone left someone again, one couple stayed together but is in a strange relationship, one couple is playing hard to get but is in fact in love with each other...

... oh well, u'll see it all when it comes on your stupid box next stupid year... booya!

- the person who takes life advice from a tv series -

*meow*

announcements (seriously)

1. we are selling our Toyota Altis 1.6 (A), year 2004, colour: navy blue, free of accidents. the condition is of course excellente because, come on, do u think that jim and i would thrash our car around? he's a car lover and i'm just a fantastic driver :P we maintain our possessions very carefully. seriously.

price: RM71k - RM75k (negotiable)

if anybody wants to view the car for a potential purchase, please do let me know. i can be contacted via my gmail (view my profile). to frens who already know my mobile number, of course can contact me there laa.

please also forward this intention of ours to your frens & family if u can cos u never know of people who are looking for a great car (which is what ours is!).. we have to let go of this car cos we just got another one and paying for 2 cars seems unnecessary to us at the present moment.. maybe when we have kids later on... we'll see.

2. according to suanie, i am an estee lauder convert. after reading her post where she tried an estee lauder range and gave raving reviews (no she wasn't paid to do it), i was convinced! so i got myself RM300 worth of [1] total make-up remover (very important, this, for anyone who wears make-up, even if it's only compact powder like me), [2] a facial cleanser and [3] an exfoliator cum mask. this can last me a few months, according to the beautician (mistilah dia cakap camtu dak, nak jual punya pasal) but i didn't regret a single penny cos after the first use, i felt a difference already.. i've ditched my RM15 neutrogena cleansers and will not turn back, yo!

3. i have also been worried at the state of my hair, which is frizzy, dry and course. in an effort to regain my college hair, i have purchased a pair of shampoo and conditioner that is only sold at saloons and specialty shops (like sasa and shins). they cost me RM200 (OMG!) but damn it's worth it. jim wants to use 'em too but i'm gonna let him use the shampoo only (sikit saja ye baby!). nasib baik rambut dia sikit.. ada hati nak pakai conditioner pulak tu :P

4. i bought the box set of Heroes Season 1 Part 1 (11 episodes) 3 days ago and have watched all of it. i know what's gonna happen and i'm gonna buy the Part 2 (the rest of the season) soon so you all Heroes freaks jangan jeles :P

5. i also bought the box set of Grey's Anatomy Season 3 Part 1 (12 episodes) together with it. haven't started on these but will go crazy and watch all of it at once like i did for Season 2 (10 hours straight in front of the tv, i got zombified!) - once i find the time.

6. i have the full 2nd Season of Grey's Anatomy...

7. and Seasons 1-3 of Sex and the City.

8. if anyone wants to rent any of my sets - RM3 per cd for 3 days, surcharge of RM1 per cd per day for extra days.

seriously :)

one bed, one shower, one summons, one tiger... one island :)

"are there any pregnancies, maam?"

"no..... i'm just fat"

the girl at the airasia check-in counter at lcct asked me as we passed her our passports. maybe it was the dress.. hmmm...

kakcik, amin, my darling and i were on the same flight but dicky and wifey flew the day before on a different airline from singapore.

the flight to phuket was very smooth, i slept all the way except for the last 15mins before arrival.. and i woke up to an annoying middle-aged man who had a few machais around him.. he sat 2 rows behind us and was drunk. on the plane. rambling loudly (and i mean LOUDLY). we suspect he's a military guy who's on his way for a "funket" (fun junket) and we all know what a funket in fuket would involve right? (hint: full-service massage *wink*). the most embarrassing thing was that he was a melayu who drank too much beer on the plane in the middle of the afternoon and made a fool of himself. see now why i'm sometimes embarrassed of my own race? go figure.

so anywho, phuket in its essence is a beautiful island. but 'the land of smiles', it is not. the mat sallehs telah mengaburkan mata mereka dengan duitan yang banyak so they didn't even care about us asian tourists.. no smiles, just frowns. all of them asked us "where u from?" and once they hear malaysia je, terus they turn off. ciss...

...especially during shopping time. it was not an exciting experience to me. they open the prices of their goods way too high, thinking that we have the kind of money the europeans do and expecting us to either pay for it, or bargain for only a little bit and if we don't want to pay what they ask for, then they will tell us to shove off. jim's interpretation of the phuketians - "they are all out to get us". ya, out to get our money that is. a conversation with the locals told us that after the tsunami incident, businesspeople had to get loans from banks to rebuild their businesses hence the higher prices of goods.. profit margin is small and revenue mostly goes to paying the loans back.. oh well... if only i had this little piece of information before deciding to go, it would've saved us a lot of sakits hatis, right?

it was also very hot there, too hot for me actually.. i don't know if it was just me or other people also felt the same way, but the sunrays just bite your skin, totally blistering it. no matter how much sunblock i slathered on myself, i still got burnt. but it's ok. i want to show off my "tan" (read: gelap) to all and sundry ;)

dicky and wifey got sick from the tuk-tuk ride - literally, they got sick in plastic bags.. ewww.. poor things.

oh yeah we went to see a tiger show at this bar called a-go-go bar.. they had needles, bananas, pingpong balls, and smoked with their vajayjays.. there was a no photo, no v.d.o, no telefon policy so i cannot show anything to u as proof that i was there. shites. all i can say is that it was disgusting yet fascinating at the same time..

i felt strangely stirred and turned on.

*erkkk*

also, i ate a "telur belangkas" for the first time.. cools.

for our daily transport, we hired motorbikes and got a summons for parking at a zebra crossing one night. they, the people who ride in 3s on one bike and tak pakai helmet, nak saman we all? fuck off lah. tapi kena gak bayar 300bath to release the chains. cilakos they all. we were all gusto wanting to go for a massage right before that but after seeing the chains on the bikes, our spirits literally deflated but i went to get a mani & pedi. why worry when u can look preedy? hehe.

ok, whatever lah... here are some photos.. they are in no particular order whatsoever cos.. aku dah malas lah nak susun.. not an easy task okkay...








i'm a camwhore :P


mat salleh separuh bogels





that's telur belangkas, we had that for lunch with kerabu mangga - super yummers!



laki aku nak makan the belangkas shell.. tsk tsk tsk..



kakcik tunjuk saman




the fish is a drunkard hihii (ada botol beer kat tepi tu)




lihatlah dunia, perut abang iparku yang boroi







that's a leetle horsefish.. eh, seahorse lah






hellow fat arms and double chin


bar dancer


pondan bar dancer


and another one


and another one


and ANOTHER ONE hahaha



he gave me white roses - my fave kind :)



doggie selling ciggie



mat-cho mat-cho mannnn.. i want to be, a macho mannnn ;)





check out the notice board heh




BABI the cat (seriously, that's his name!!)


ni kat lcct makan brekpas masa nak depart for phuket